Insecurity

So... I'm back.

I don't have such diary to be written on this year, soooo... There's just too much things I wanna tell right now. 

1) Dance progress

I'm not a pro dancer. I just love it. I can't do the split or any other flexibility things. I'm not good with beats&music. Actually I don't know what makes me going on 'till now. My moves look terrible. It sucks. But people say, don't waste your time. If you have chance to see me dance and u don't like it, just laugh or make fun of me with my moves. ==" Sometimes I also feel depressed and askin myself, "Even though I try my very best, will I ever dance perfectly?"

I'm learning on Kembang Tanjung right now. It's jaipong. My first jaipong ever.

2) Civics task - Internship

I have to teach in "Cinta Baca - Bogor Baru" for civics assignment. The Cinta Baca called it "Volunteer/Voluntary" thingy. I went through my first day. I taught 18 kids, they were grade 4 and 5. I enjoyed my experience. Well, teachers got the control. Yes, I can handle 'em! \m/

I want to keep teaching. It's possible, you know. Not only for assignment. I got the time and I thing they would allow me. I just don't like the officers, they seem really busy and they didn't take my questions seriously. Maybe they met a lot of annoying students who asked 'em thousands unimportant questions before.

Well I think I should find other places.

3) Korean Class

People may google this as I did. I joined a Korean Class (kursus Bahasa Korea) at Korean Cultural Center - Jakarta, Indonesia. It's quite cheap and we got native Korean. You can trust KCC Indonesia as they come from Embassy of South Korea (they're affiliated or whatever, I don't really know). It costs 750k rupiah per level. 

I only had one meeting this far. Everything's good but the distance. I have to take the 12.18 train or before from Bogor to Cawang and I will arrive on 13.45 as my class start on 14.00. The worse is fact that the SCBD Shuttle Bus doesn't operate till 13.00 on Saturday. I have to pay 5k for taking ojeg.

4) Personal Life

Friendship going well. Both in class (school) or outside school. 

I went out with Vanda, Dimas, Azady, Luluk and other old mates recently. We had good time together.

I love them, I wanna be in the same school with them all just like on junior high BUT I don't wanna move from my current school (I love my school THAT MUCH) or rewind the junior high times (believe me, my JHS is going worse these days).

Anyway my ex contacted me again. That foreign ex. What's the point following my current issues as we didn't see each other anymore?

Oh ya, I also feel insecure these days. I have everything. Everything I need and almost everything I want. I just think that is too easy to get what I want. The process. I'm afraid of hidden things&facts that could bring me down later, when finally I couldn't have what I want anymore.

FYI, I started to stalk the usual suspect of the same old case AGAIN. Been 2 years since the last case.