50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind

I found an interesting yet inspiring sites. Henry Lau of Super Junior M brought me there. It's marcandangel.com. Henry posted this link to his twitter few days ago and yeah, so inspiring. FYI, I'm a big fans of Henry Lau. Always admiring his talents.

Let me review one of the post from the site based on my recent situation. I'm picking it in a random mood.
I'm not supposed to answer them but I love answering questions! Especially the rhetorical ones :p

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?  24? Seriously over 20. My looks and style are just make sense for above 20 years old, not a high school girl.
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying? I hate the feeling of failing. I don't have such a great curiosity tho.
3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? Most people want us to live just like other people, being ordinary and such. I admit that I had been trapped in such perception for years, yeah. But I'll live my live the way I like to. NOT THE WAY THAT MY PARENTS WANT. Seriously, it's mine.
4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? Probably. I love talking and explaining things in a dramatic way.
5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? Most people hate changes and they love being mainstream. Seriously, I'm gonna change it!
6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich? Being an escort? Not a charity works tho. I'd love to work as a detective. The happiest moment is when I finally find out a hidden sin lol.
7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing? I want to do what I believe in but since I'm still a minor I just can't.
8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently? Go find a lover before 20, raise 2 children before 25 and meet Tata Young before I graduate from college lol. 
9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken? I don't get the question, tbh. Lol.
10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? Doing things right.
11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire.  They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend.  The criticism is distasteful and unjustified.  What do you do? Keep going with the conversation and just not worsening the situation of her. 
12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be? "I know that you probably don't want to be born but here's your path and you're not gonna live for the second time. Do what you want."
13. Would you break the law to save a loved one? No. I don't wanna get into trouble just because of one person. I mean, I have never been attached to silly love thingy.
14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity? YES.
15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people? The way I live as a minor from such a rich family. Well I'm not the only one, but I'm sure no one track their family member the way I do in a young age. I have a trust issue, you know.
16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy? Because I see things differently. If its doesn't make you happy, then just leave and find something else. Life's fun. Ego takes part tho.
17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do?  What’s holding you back? Expand my business, go to Italy, have vacation with my dearest one. I'm a minor student. Age really holding me back lol.
18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? Yes. Faking some love and intentions.
19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why? SINGAPORE. I wanna live in tropical country because of my religion issue (it's gonna be difficult to fast and pray in subtropic countries). I also want to study there. I admire the SG citizen's freedom. They don't have issue such cancelling Lady Gaga concert.
20. Do you push the elevator button more than once?  Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster? I once believed it. I'm still doing it when I'm totally pissed of or bored.
21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton? A worried genius. I love having ability that people don't. Also I've been worrying all the simple things of my life, so I'm fine to live as a worried genius.
22. Why are you, you? Ask my parents and society why they made me as me. They have to admit that all of my GOOD and BAD are happened because they built me that way.
23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend? NO. That's why I'm feeling really sorry to all of my friends.
24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you? Losing touch with a good friend who lives right near me, of course. 
25. What are you most grateful for? God who has been soooo kind on me yet I've been living as a dirty bitch.
26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones? I'd love to lose all of old my memories. I cry a lot rather than smile a lot because of old memories.
27. Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first? YES. But most of the time, NO.
28. Has your greatest fear ever come true? Yeah. That's why I don't have to be scared of anything now. lol.
29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset?  Does it really matter now? YES! I remember and it still matter to me. I really remember things in detail and keep the disappointment like forever. 
30. What is your happiest childhood memory?  What makes it so special? Times before my bro was born. I was the queen that time. LOL.
31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?  The moment I set my goal to enter NTU. I really want to leave the country and all of my family issue to have a bright future.
32. If not now, then when? Later. When you finally have the courage to challenge people that against you.
33. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose? TIME.
34. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever? NOPE.
35. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars? Most of time the people do silly and stupid things. Also they interpreted God's sayings in such a wrong way.
36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil? I don't think so. 
37. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job? I wanna have a fresh start over with a million dollars.
38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing? More work, of course. 
39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before? Yeah. Sometimes.
40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in? LAST YEAR! :D
41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today? I'd love to visit mosque and... Stay alone.
42. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous? Yes. After all, the quality of your life isn't going to be determined by years you've lived.
43. What is the difference between being alive and truly living? When you have no regret and insecurities but gratefulness.
44. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right? Ah, I started it since Sec 3 lol.
45. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? Because the society judgement is really scary. 
46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? I WANNA DO WHAT I WANT AND BE THE BADDEST BITCH. C'mon, we need to have fun. I might kill some people too. I don't mind being jailed when no one cares.
47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing? Just now. Lol.
48. What do you love?  Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love? Love is just a word. I prefer passion or addiction. Lol. I'm addicted to strange music genre, btw. 
49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday?  What about the day before that?  Or the day before that? I'd love to remember. That's why I'm writing blog or diary.
50. Decisions are being made right now.  The question is:  Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you? I am making them for myself. I'm the one who know myself best.