Lesson, Love, Learn!

I envy those who have an amazing start of 2014.

Mine was actually surprising. Sukses dirawat di rumah sakit. Obviously not my favorite place to begin a year.

It was terrible fever that sent me to the hospital. 40 degree Celcius body temperature never felt so painful and strange. I screamed a lot in pain and suffer before actually finding out what was happening to myself. 

I am not a primary kid

Hospital care was great. I felt fresh and perfect just few hours after arriving. The only thing that bother me was that they locked my right hand. I had to do things with left hand only, including eating and typing. I'm not natural ambidextrous but I'm trying hard to be one these past years. The effort is clearly not wasted.

But 6 hours after getting my drip, I realized that I couldn't really stay calm. :D
The nurse had to change my tube because the drip somehow couldn't get into my body. Instead my blood was dripping out.

The rest of the stay was just about me kept eating and drinking. I could eat anything, and preferably in large portions. So my daily menu was filled with pizzas, ramen, milk and chocolates. I also slept for 14-18 hours a day. In the end, I gained 6 kgs.

Enough with the story telling, as much as I like to lie down and rest, I actually wasted a lot of time and opportunity to study by falling sick for 10 days. I skipped school for exactly a week and missed my daily plan to review for SAT.

I messed up. Again.

But... Just face it. I can't turn back time and tell myself on December 30, 2013 not to go to the cursed Mirror Cave in Labuan Bajo. I really needed to fall sick, God wants me so, and take time for something else. Just chew it and learn.

I did reflect a lot and receive love from teachers and buddies. The most lovable thing is I had friends coming from primary, middle to high school. Not to say that I'm popular, attention-seeker or whatever, but to actually see keeping relations is a precious thing. More touching fact... My best bitches, Vanda and Luluk, came in heavy rain from their houses which approx. an hour drive (not talking about the distance but the hardship - congestion - to get through). So lovely ah!

attempt to break record in a unique way

Then, I found myself going back to school and greeted with warm welcome. I should worry about my grades and attitude of not paying attention. Most of the time - I would only stare blankly on the board, my notes or my phone. It was too late. Grades for the past semester were already submitted and I obviously realized that I didn't do good enough.

My average score dropped for 0.66/100. I know its not even A FULL POINT but it clearly broke my heart. Even with the fact that I wasn't in school for a full 30days. It's more than a month, baby!!!!

I'm not being an obsessive-bitch but I can do better, if not much better.

I don't know how to end this reflection.

Umm... No one forces me to be the smartest kid in the entire school. People just want me to succeed in life, so do I. Maybe it's time to find something else that I'm good at. By the way, while we exploring my potential, why don't we go partying first - this time in the East Coast, US?